Ehasaaso ke lafj- 1

[ajay nidaan]

Ek ehasaas aksar tanhaai me hota ki maine tumhe samjha hi nahi maine tumhe kya khud ko bhi us astar se nahi samjha jis astar se mere vichaar hai, ya hone chahiye jaise-jaise zindagi ke kareeb hota gaya vaise-vaise mujhe aisa mahsus hone laga aur mere andar ehasaaso me kuch ghatane laga mujhe aisa mahsus hua ki wajood ek ghatana hai aur jo ghatana hai, vo asafal hai, apitu vo insaan asfal nahi hai, use kahi na kahi kisi na kisi astar par kaamyabi jarur haasil hoti hai, magar apne hi andar uthe in sawaalo ko jehan talash karta rahta hai, iske jawab magar jab sahi aur saarthak jawab nahi milta tab bhi aisa lagta hai, ki paane laayak kisi ko puri tarah sa paya nahi ja sakta magar khone ke liye bhi ham puri tarah se taiyaar nahi hote ye kaise ehasaas hai jo jehan aur dil par aksar ek aashiyana bana lete hai aur waqt ke saath-saath usme kai sawaalo ke tinke jodte jate hai, aur aakhir me wajood khud ek sawaal banke raha jata hai haqikat ke aaine ke ru-b-ru si apni hi khamoshi me simti hue meri tanhaai.......